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Feb 11, 2009
I have a secret for you: today I am on Lexapro. Don't tell, they'd
banish us you know. I stole the pills from my aunt. We both have
depression. I wasnt so sure about taking something, but I figure I will
try it. How is it any worse that cigarettes, or alcohol, or weed, or
motrin, or a McSandwich? Of course I havent been taking any of those
things for weeks now, except for the motrin. It's for my back pain. Who
knows how it will make me feel? There are a thousand factors that go
into your mood. And I'm on period right now, I'm already loopy. My aunt
says it makes her tired, but also focused and not so anxious. So far I
feel pretty normal, a little energetic for so early in the morning, and
sore from dancing. Oh I drank lots of coffee, and when I do I can't sit
still. My body trembles with energy, demands movement. I danced last
night for 3 hours to Yannick Noah and Melissa Etheridge until my legs
felt like lead. Then I sat on the floor and rocked and swayed, hands in
the air, head back. I needed to, my body demanded it. I couldnt sing
because my heavy breathing made me cough. I love Yannick Noah and
dancing with my hair down. I am in Brasil, at Carnival. I practice
Portuguese pronunciation in my head, the deep dipthongs, the nasal
nouns. My aunt came in, but I didnt stop. I've never danced freestyle
in front of anyone before.
I am a bit cold right now. Wearing a miniskirt in February, guess I'm
asking for it. It's cuz I havent done my laundry in like a week, and
I'm running out of clothes.
Posted at 05:47 am by onlydaughter
 | | | emilie
March 31, 2009 11:42 PM PDT
re: amber 2-23-09
hey wow i didnt even know anybody read this blog, i'm flattered.
well i should be asking you about depression, you seem to be far more experienced with treatments than I am.
I've been depressed since I was 15. I'm 19 now, so 4 years. I am only starting with the lexy because my depression has gotten progressively worse since then. I used to be simply ADD and tired, moody, lack of feeling. Now I am paranoid, anxious, and I still have no feeling except fear. That's what depression is, it's paralyzing fear. You are too scared to act, thinking you are bound to fail. I will be careful, but quite honestly it couldn't get a whole lot worse for me.
Everyone feels like that, like their symptoms of depression define them. I used to feel like that, before my depression took a nose-dive. I remember who I was as a child. That, I believe, is who I am. Good luck Amber. The only advice I can give you is to monitor it and make sure it's not getting any worse. | |
| | | Amber~
February 23, 2009 03:40 PM PST
How long have you had depression? Yeah, it's not fun. I started going on medication back in sophmore year, per my request. From there I tried Zoloft, Prozac, Serequil and Welbutrin. Right now I'm on hiatus from doctors and pills. If I'm getting better its a gradual process. Be careful with the pills. At this point I want to get better, but am scared to find out when I am better that being depressed was what defined who I was. Does that make sense? Anyways just wanted to say hi. | |
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onlydaughterAugust 15th 1989 (Age 20) Female boonton Hey. You're cool cuz you're here, visiting my blogdrive. I'm Em, 19 yrs old. I graduated class of 2007 from the Morristown-Beard School. I am sort of neurotic, but rather entertaining. I live with my family and I'm very close to them. I'm single ;) I have a lot of drama in my life, which does not make sense because I'm a laid-back, happy-go-lucky kinda person. I love to have fun, but I have common sense too. My mother is a daycare provider so I spend a lot of time around young kids, which has caused me to obtain a very strong mother's instinct even though I am not a mother myself. Well, my dad is my biggest supporter and I cannot imagine ever living without him. I dont like it when I roll my sleeves up to wash my hands and right when my hands are good and soapy and wet my sleeves start to do the unthinkable... unroll. So what are you gonna do? Roll them back up with soapy hands or get the ends all wet? If you have the same problem and want to talk about it, my sn is beautyintheskies. i am... a sister, a daughter, a neat freak, an actress, a dancer, a dreamer (although some would say space case), and a music lover. i am.. patient, practical, introspective, realistic, nostalgic, fair, passionate, unique (or at least the self-esteem-based school system says so), sexual, logical, supportive, down to earth, childish, shameless, creative, easy going, brave, and forever questioning the meaning of my existence.
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