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Sep 3, 2009
SHIT
took vicodin, now i can;t even breathe. Like my respiratory system is depressed, turning an involuntary action, breathing, into one i actually have to think about. And I forget. And I twitch involuntarily as a reminder. It's bizarre.
My first time on vicodin. I've done oxycontin and percs, both had similar effects. But I just can't handle this right now. I tried to sleep, but I forget to breathe and my body jerks awake. I'm afraid I'm going to fall unconscios so I guess I'm stuck being awake for now. I have to work in the morning too. I have to leave at 8:30 am, omg it's gonna be BAD tomorrow. I need my sleep. I need to sleep like 8 hrs a night or i'm useless. I need the money tho, so I'm gonna have to push thru it. I'm exhausted right now too. I've been up since like 9am yesterday, and it's now almost 3am. I'm afraid the lack of oxygen to my brain is going to cause brain damage. I'm not doing this shit again. I'm off alcohol cuz I'm trying to lose weight and improve my depression.
Ditched Lauren, she blew me off, I got pissed, we're through. It's just the last straw with her.
So now I hang out at home, I dont really have friends, which is fine for a misanthrope like me.
Posted at 11:42 pm by onlydaughter
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 onlydaughterAugust 15th 1989 (Age 20) Female boonton Hey. You're cool cuz you're here, visiting my blogdrive. I'm Em, 19 yrs old. I graduated class of 2007 from the Morristown-Beard School. I am sort of neurotic, but rather entertaining. I live with my family and I'm very close to them. I'm single ;) I have a lot of drama in my life, which does not make sense because I'm a laid-back, happy-go-lucky kinda person. I love to have fun, but I have common sense too. My mother is a daycare provider so I spend a lot of time around young kids, which has caused me to obtain a very strong mother's instinct even though I am not a mother myself. Well, my dad is my biggest supporter and I cannot imagine ever living without him. I dont like it when I roll my sleeves up to wash my hands and right when my hands are good and soapy and wet my sleeves start to do the unthinkable... unroll. So what are you gonna do? Roll them back up with soapy hands or get the ends all wet? If you have the same problem and want to talk about it, my sn is beautyintheskies. i am... a sister, a daughter, a neat freak, an actress, a dancer, a dreamer (although some would say space case), and a music lover. i am.. patient, practical, introspective, realistic, nostalgic, fair, passionate, unique (or at least the self-esteem-based school system says so), sexual, logical, supportive, down to earth, childish, shameless, creative, easy going, brave, and forever questioning the meaning of my existence.
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